A letter to Chasey

Good morning my little sweet baby! I dont want to forget to tell you these things, so I will write them down whenever I get a moment.

Do you know that this is the first time in my life that I wish that I could stop time? I was always looking forward, as I am now, but there is something so perfect about you just the way you are right now, that I don't want this time to leave. You have a wonderful family. Amazing grandparents, and aunties and uncles, and a big brother that loves you very much. And when I met your Daddy our lives changed for the even better. But you were all we needed to take it from really good to really great. Now, Mommy and Daddy may have more little red heads in the future, but you will always hold such a special place in our hearts.

Sometimes I look at you and wonder when I have to give you back. You are so special that its hard to believe you are mine. I wonder when I am going to wake up from this dream of being a mommy to a little angel like you.

Somehow you look just like I pictured you would. Bright eyes, red hair, little adorable round face, and a just slightly chubby body. You are a very spirited boy. You jerk your arms and legs so fast. When you wake up you grunt and jerk. You love to talk and coo. And yesterday Daddy and I were singing to Coldplay and you were singing right along with us. Loudly! You make hilarious faces and do little screams. You look at newt like he is crazy. Which he certainly is. I look down at you when I am rocking you, at your little pudge arms, and think...WOW...I made this. We made this. Its a real tiny person. There has to be a God.